â€œGive yourself a yearâ€™s worth of a lot of grace.â€
I heard these words come out of my best friendâ€™s mouth about me leaving my job of the last 11 years to be a stay-at-home-mom.
In my head it didnâ€™t make sense. Iâ€™d have all the time in the world. Literally.
I was in for a rude awakening.
All those things other people chipped in to help with when I was teaching like laundry, vacuuming, dishes, childcare, errands became my new time crunch.
And on top of it, because I was a stay-at-home-mom, I felt the need to jump into the PTO, take on a new business to help out with finances, and pitch in more with our non-profit.
On its own, motherhood within the home is a huge job, but add in all those extra features to it, and here I am feeling confused and lost like a fish out of water.
No schedule. No â€œThis happens nowâ€ and â€œThat happens then.â€
And in that â€œstuff,â€ no matter what it is, it is so easy to get distracted and land in this place of confusion and disappointment.
The kids arenâ€™t getting enough of my attention. I didn’t make that call. I missed that appointment. The house isnâ€™t clean as it should be. The laundry isnâ€™t caught up. The blog hasnâ€™t been written lately. I havenâ€™t worked out in months. Iâ€™m behind on Bible study. I. Am. Such. A. Failure.
I am floundering, it’s true, but Iâ€™ve got one thing that keeps lifting me up.Â
Iâ€™m not wandering aimlessly.
Best of all, I have a purpose and a calling.
I can lean on Him as hard and as often as I need to.
Lord, what have You put in front of me today?
This pile of laundry? A game of Sorry with my four-year-old? A random blog post You put on my heart in the middle of loading the dishwasher?
Then I consider it joy.
Because it is so unbelievably easy to see it as being scattered or lost or even failing.
But all I needed was a little perspective and a big reality check, that came in the form of advice from another wonderful friend.
Reality: Satan saw an opportunity to chip away at my heart, and I let him.
- Iâ€™m not good enough
- Not worth it
- Should do more than I can handle
- Iâ€™m a failure
- Itâ€™s okay to be lazy because being a mom is hard
- Iâ€™m right where God has placed me after answering a six-year-long prayer.
- Exactly what my family needs.
- Have enough on my plate, and He will guide me.
- Not alone.
- Succeeding. Learning. Growing.
- Pull strength from the Lord when being a mom is hard.
- Trust that He is sufficient and His grace is enough.
I donâ€™t have to worry.
I’m no longer a slave to fear.
For I am a child of a graceful, loving, peaceful God.